All about me

Just thoughts...

So I'm headed into work on Wednesday I think it was & it was beautiful out. Bright blue skies, not too hot, a little breeze going & I can't find anything on the radio. So, I tune into 98.5... and there it is. A song that you used to sing; one that if I remember correctly you sang as we were headed to the beach.
I knew when you took me to the beach you were in a great mood. Maybe that's why I love the beach still to this day. Idk.
But, I hear this song & I hear you singing. It's funny too, because every time I hear this mans voice I hear yours too. You had a similar voice, I always thought you had a great voice. But when you got into your "I've gotta be perfect" modes, you sucked.
I want to remember the good times, just the good times. But, when I think what came of right before we went to the beach & what happened after that wonderful day at the beach... that's when I get angry. God says that he cannot forgive me if I cannot forgive you; well, I've forgiven you long ago. Even though I KNEW you would NEVER apologize. And I also know that God says never to hate anybody or anything; but that is so hard for me to do; because I HATE YOU! As much as I've loved you I hate you 100x more!